“The real test of friendship is can you literally do nothing with the other person? Do you appreciate those simple moments?” ~Eugene Kennedy
I could not. We had to do something when I was there. That is why I didn’t see it. I was too busy to notice or feel anything.
The panic attack that occurred during the long drive home should have been a sign that there was something very wrong.
I didn’t see or expect that my choice of friendships was ruining my mental health and, in turn, my business.
See, it was a lot of fun. It was so much fun to be with both of them.
We’d stay up late into the early hours drinking, eating yummy food, or watching our favorite TV series. This was the perfect way to escape during a pandemic when you only had a few people with whom to meet and nowhere else to go. We did yoga and meditations with each other.
How lucky I am.
What was I?
I’ve since come to learn about trauma bonds through inner child work, and I’ve recognized there was something seriously wrong with my seemingly perfect and fun life.
My family has always looked to me for help. My mother was suffering from severe depression…