“You don’t have to be positive all the time. It’s perfectly okay to feel sad, angry, annoyed, frustrated, scared, or anxious. Having feelings doesn’t make you a ‘negative person.’ It makes you human.” ~Lori Deschene
In November I went through a rollercoaster of emotions, with sudden, unexplained fits of anger and crying hysterically for no apparent reason. I hardly slept, felt the urge to kick, punch, or scream.
My partner leaving me behind was one of my main triggers.
He’d go out with his friends to play pool and I would immediately shut down, shut him out, and turn inward.
My thoughts would spiral out-of-control as I lay in bed.
What if the child gets injured?
He’s a grown man playing pool; he’s not going to get hurt.
Does he pick up other women?
No. He loves me.
Why didn’t he invite me?
I value time alone.
We’re in a loving, committed relationship, and have been together for four years, so why hasn’t he proposed?
Do I really want to marry? Or is it just that society has told me to get married?
Why hasn’t he texted me?
He’s being present with his friends. It’s a good thing.
What is wrong? Why am I so controlling, petulant and jealous ?…?